it's all just circumstance

Why do I  always keep aloof? Some people can simply be themselves, it's nearly ridiculous how even stupidity and backwardness is for them so natural and easy to show. Just like breathing or blinking - they can act without any reflection or alteration. Even if I really don't take a fancy to them at all, I still envy not being discouraged and insecure. If only I could express myself so, without any shame...